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about / pics / adventure1 / adventure:atlanta / writings 1-25-03
okay shut up i know i havent updated in forever, but if you read my journal then you would see whats going on with my life! i'm just writing this now because i dont want those genius-type people at www.avocadosalad.org to out do me and continue to reign in their Oh So creative and genius-like...crapola. how prolific of me. =/ i'm going to arizona in less than three weeks and while i'm there i'm going to sit in swirling hot hot water and look at the stars and the desert and the beautiful mountains that stole my heart the first time i was there, and see if i can't find my creativity again [i think i left it there.] and i'll miss jason but he'll be in LA which is closer to arizona than NC so thats good. and when i come back, i'll be that much closer to not having to deal with school-type bullshit and sitting in english ap listening to them laugh at literature jokes that no one else gets...though making fun of them with zach is rather entertaining, but whiteside just is always making fun of me and so what i don't slave over my homework every second and don't read David Foster Wallace to expand my mind and laugh at all the witticisms, it doesn't mean i'm totally dumb. "Violin Concerto in D" Tchaikovsky
i have an ocean full of potential...but just a teaspoon of motivation. 1-03-03
i dont have much to say, nothing new's going on. my dog flame died last night but thats pretty much it...i'm just here to add a link: candace neal a very sweet talented girl from my school who went to contest with me. :) "Gollum's Song" - Emilianna Torrini ever wanted to know how to spot a Prostitot? heres how: -wierd JLo hat -trendy belt -perfectly applied glitter makeup -a vacant expression -a cell phone with a glittery or pink cover -low cut shirt [boobs optional, besides they're only like 12-15] -pants that cut off their circulation -either really high stiletto heels or stupid white sneakers -they travel in packs so now you know. over and out 122202
it is nearly christmas. do you know what i want? some good old fashioned lovin'. or maybe some modern lovin would be nice, too! how about any lovin in general? "low lit bar" diploid GIVE ME LOVIN!!! 121402
this girl says hello. "murder hearts" desert city soundtrack 
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snowy snowy snow. it looked so pretty from my vantage point on the floor while danny was dreading up my hair. thats right,i've gone the trendy way ... heh heh...but its just that it wouldnt be me if i haven't tried that one particular hairstyle...i think it'll be cool. "photobooth" death cab for cutie
i'm still sick. i stayed home the past two days doing nothing but lounging around in my pajamas and watching daytime TV and back-combing, twisting, and waxing chunks of my hair, and of course, sleeping. god damn, i'm hungry! 120202
i'm sick. my throat is raw and my eyes feel strained in their sockets, when i cough it feels like glass rattling in my lungs. last night i couldn't get to sleep, and then this morning my alarm went off an hour early for no apparent reason. needless to say, i was upset. it is so cold outside that when i step out the snot freezes in my nose and it cramps up and thats not pleasant. i took a nice 2 hour nap this afternoon after eating a very scrumptious hotdog stand hotdog from the fringes of the city. the guy that made it was a big black guy with his afro pulled into pigtails and an orange fleece hood over them, resembling a large and silly snowman. his companion was a businessman with no face but a turtleneck pulled up to his eyes and sunglasses over those, laughing after everything the vendor guy said, which was mostly at my expense. they talked about drive-bys and i lamented the dueling matches of the past. finally i was able to eat the hot dog which was absolutely perfect...split down the middle and filled with all meat chili, plump and juicy, and then smothered in mustard and ketchup. however, the RC cola that i purchased with it was less than satisfactory. oh well, can't have everything. "sleep spent" death cab for cutie
i want nothing more right now than to curl up in bed and stay there until i feel better, but there are things to be done. [i just have to find out what those things are...] 112702
easy mac and dr pepper...the lunch of champions! i think today i'm going to see harry potter 2! i can't wait! i love harry potter. no school today, for it is a holiday. thanksgiving eve. i can't wait because tonight the turkey will come and leave lots of food by the fireplace and i will miraculously wake up and be really fat...and the stockings i hang up will be full of mashed potatoes and sweet potatoes and cranberries.... just remind me, i am NOT to fill up before dinner on appetizers, even though i do it every year. but chips and french onion dip is just the BEST thing ever, i dont see why it cant be a meal?! "molly bawn" the cheiftans featuring alison krauss did you know that McDonalds is open on thanksgiving? i guess for the british people. 112202
i finally finished my personal statement! you can go to my lJ to read it, if you wish. "fade into you" mazzy star does anybody come here anymore? i guess i don't promote it much anymore, but i love my little site and i wish others did, too. something strange happened today. around the time i wake up, my dog flame ventured into my room and jumped on my bed, somehow turning off my alarm. so i woke up at almost 7:00 and my mom said i didnt have to go to school if i vacuumed, cleaned the house, and washed some royal court dishes. so this i did. therefore, today has been spent drifting in and out of sleep, eating a bowl of easy mac, vacuuming, cleaning dishes while singing loudly to 'The Boyfriend' and mucking around on the internet not talking to anybody [because everyone's at school.] tonight i'm going to venture over to the movie theater and try to convince mrs. wigren to give my job back, and if not then i'll have to continue turning in applications. tomorrow night we're going to Mickey and Mooches for some fancy pants dining. tonight i'm also going to finally spend some time other than after-school with my danny. i miss him so much! we'll cruise the town, get into trouble, mack some hoes, you know, just like the crazy lazy days of summer. i miss those days.
i've said it before and i'll say it again...turtle pie is one of the best things ever created! mmmmmmmm....turtles.... 112002
every day i take a nap after school and wake up smudgy and groggy. however, my work production level has risen by a great percentage and therefore i will keep to this regiment. somebody PLEASE remind me to keep working on my personal statement. i would do it now but i'm not in a very prolific writing mood at this moment. "smoke" ben folds five
theres nothing wrong with routine. i just like to mix it up once in a while. ever so often i will change my routine from what it used to be just so i don't get bored. i cant decide if i prefer singing in the rain or dancing in the street. 111702
my heart belongs to kendall and jason and all my friends i made this weekend that go to Providence. whatever you may think, at least the theater people are some of the coolest, friendly, and open people i've ever met. "ever so lonely/eyes/ocean" sheila chandra i hope i know them for a long time. i get to go to barnes and noble today, and buy books! boooooooks are so great! maybe even a CD! what fun.
la, la! it seems that love is in the air tonight! 111402
so yesterday night was spent at kevin's house smoking cigarettes, eating delicious chili made by kevin, playing horses with eli and savannah, and making small talk with jarrod. "abegail ann" jeremy enigk
tomorrow i have to get up early and go to high point. so i'm definitely bringing a bunch of good cds so i can sleep with my head on kyle [ my date for the bus]'s shoulder. won't that be fun? wish me luck! 111202
i am in desperate need of catching up on sleep. I wish i could just spend an entire day in bed with dr pepper and food and only leave to go outside to smoke a cigarette or two. but i will not be able to do such a thing until after this weekend. both The Boyfriend and renfest are ending this weekend! wish me luck with the boyfriend, we are going to contest, though i'm not sure whether i want us to win or not. lately i've been kind of unenthusiastic about giving up time to anything other than doing my art and sleep. i'm such an unmotivated teenager. "another morning stoner" and you will know us by the trail of dead
i woke up late today, and therefore spent the day smudgy and bra-less. but luckily i finished the homework, and now's the time to watch buffy. 111102
"glory box" portishead  my ankle is hurt and i have a warm ankle brace on it. i dont know what happened! but this weekend i was walking at the fest and must have stepped on it wrong because sat. afternoon it was kind of twingy, and then i walked on it all day saturday and today and it just hurt really bad, but now that i have the brace it feels better. i'm one of those strange people who enjoys having injuries just so i can show them off. i know thats awfully strange, but its true. and i have bruises and scratches all over my legs that i can show off now, although i dont have any horror stories because i have no clue how i got them! my dad just picked up my mouse and shone the red light over his face. he's so funny.
now's your chance to go here . that way you can go see pictures of my play, The Boyfriend . Have fun.
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i'm in the process of filling out many applications. application to UNCW, application to work at Barnes & Noble, and the application to become a reader's advantage member and save 10% on all my purchases at said bookstore. "trouble" coldplay i am completely happy right now because we performed The Boyfriend last night and the night before and everyone has come up to me and told me that I was the funniest and the best in the play. that warms my heart even if i do look down at my feet and smile shyly and mumble thank you when they tell me. I also got on the honor roll at school [no Ds or Fs] on my report card, meaning that I can remain in the renaissance festival. i'm also writing my personal statement for Wilmington. i am basing it around the three loves of my life: writing, art, and music. i am almost for sure guaranteed a spot there. i just wish i wasn't so lazy because i have to get my school to send my transcripts and so on. but with a 680 verbal SAT i should do well in all my literary endeavors. [thats 94% better than the rest of the NATION]
and, on a closing note, sometimes i wish i wasn't such a fashion snob. but then, i wish some people knew how to dress in a manner that didn't offend every aspect of my being. oh well, you can't always get what you want. [i love you mick!]
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instead of going to the ren fest today, i am: "this mess we're in" PJ Harvey featuring thom yorke - going to McDonalds - buying new socks at Target with dad - going to see The Banger Sisters with mom - doing laundry - sleeping some more saint etienne is really a band that people should invest some time in. i'd be grateful? i don't know.
i really need to take a shower. my hair is greasy and gross and this soccer shirt is really soaking up my body smell...gross. but i have so much to do today, so i guess it'll just be lots of deodorant, perfume, and a bandanna on my head. sometimes i can't believe how gross i can be.
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welcome to the new and improved version of crossmyheart. "who's got the crack?" the moldy peaches for a deeper, in depth look at my life, look to my journal because its got some wierd wild stuff. so for halloween i had candy detail. i wore smudged black eyeliner, bright red lipstick, and filled my hair with paste and black spike-it gel. i also wore my Fashioncore Til Death shirt. me and my mom sat in the living room watching Bram Stoker's Dracula while i handed jolly rancher suckers, baby ruths, butterfingers, and crunch bars to little kitties, angels, thugs, and cowboys. lately my days have been full of achy shoulders, being defiant, smoking reefer, and going to rehearsal. my nights have been full of curling up in balls on my bed and crying myself to sleep or smoking outside in the bitter cold.
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